Monday, November 16, 2009


So a really good friend of mine once told me "Jess, if you look for sh*t, you find shi*t and sh*t stinks". She is soooooooo right. But why doesn't that not give me the pause I so desperately need to take before I dive in and start the search?! I am insecure I guess. Past hurts don't allow me to move on and just enjoy the present moment and my many blessings. It's not a happy place to live in fear and doubt. I feel hurt by people's actions and when I try to discuss that, I just get curt answers or no answers which doesn't make me all warm and fuzzy. I guess bottom line, it's my problem. It's my responsibility to figure out how to forgive and move on. I just don't think I know how.