So I finally made a decision and I think it was the right one. I am going away for Christmas to visit my family. I just feel its important to be with the people who love and support you for real, not the ones who say it and don't do anything to back it up. I hate to sound like that but the truth is the truth and it ain't always pretty.
I think the New Year is going to bring some changes for me. I am not happy with the way things are right now so I need to do something about it before it eats away at the very core of who I am. I can no longer allow someone else to dictate my life. I will not keep putting other people before me, other than my son.
Change is coming so watch out.